Is there any chance of being adopted at over 18 years old?
A lot of people don’t have parental support, and it is hard, but it is no reason to put your life on hold. Being adopted doesn’t guaruntee that support anyway. You need to get some counseling for the anxiety and move on with your life by being independent. It sounds like your boyfriend has been a great support system. You fear your life, but it sounds like you have depression and anxiety issues that need therapy, having family can help, but they won’t fix this for you. Get some help for the depression and anxiety, learn to be independent, and learn to build and recognize a new support system for yourself. Parents do not equal the only possibly support, and if you mean financial support, well then you really need help, because no one is going to adopt you then pay for everything. I am sorry to say that not getting a lot of attention and food is certainly not the best way to grow up, but it could have been much worse. You need to stop clinging to that and take the necessary steps to grow
