Is magic, spells, potions and other stuff like that agenst the christian religion?
It depends on which denomination of Christianity you follow – Some are rather stricter than others on the subject, although they mostly agree that it’s a bad thing. If you feel that you have to start experimenting with ‘magic’ stuff then at least start with things which have a Christian base – wearing religious amulets like a St Christopher medallion, reading up on Christian rituals of protection, finding out about relics, holy oils, and the like. Don’t just grab the first ‘New Age’ book that you see or start trying to do spells you’ve seen on the Internet. Unskilled dabbling tends to be a bad idea and won’t really achieve much. I’m not saying that you’ll be possessed or anything like that, but you already sound a bit unsure about what direction your going and this may make you even more confused about things.