How do I go deeper, meditate, longer periods with God?
You can’t by yourself. Your head doesn’t like that. But if you have the desire for God to step in on your life, you’ve done what you’re able to do. And now it is God who controls the increasing contact with Him, knowing how to tempt, to compel the desire to do so. At every moment you are in the fullest attentiveness to God that you are capable of. You are never failing. Only moving forward through His perfect relationship with you brings you home to Paradise.