Why am i so stupid?
Hey, I’m only going to address one part of your question here really. A few years ago I was involved with someone who bullied me and shouted at me, belittled me and stripped me of all my self confidence and self esteem. Even though I realised it was happening I couldn’t seem to get away. The way that these people work is to make them completely dependant on you so that you rely on them totally and never leave them. The make you feel weak, but in fact they are the weak ones. I’m not trying to put words into your mouth, but when this happened to me I left the relationship feeling worthless and unattractive and convinced that no-one would ever be interested in me ever again, because that was how he had made me feel. I was lucky as I was able to move away and I made a completely clean break so it was easy to resist the temptation to get back in contact, but don’t feel stupid because we have all done that at one time or another. What I am really trying to say is please don’t let the way tha
You’re not stupid………. you recognise that your relationship with him has been a destructive one. He has controlled, manipulated and bullied you so much that you now lack the confidence to be without him. Work on re-building your self-esteem, find hobbies, evening classes and a new circle of friends. Don’t go to places where you might see him, or places where you used to go with him. Get OFF the drugs entirely (I’ve seen your other questions on here). Go to your doctor, who can help with stopping the drugs. Ask to be referred to a counsellor. VALUE YOURSELF. Good luck.
